It was the nite b4 dieting and all thru the house.....

it's 2:30 in the morning.....and i doubt i'm going to be able to fall asleep. I'm rlly anticipating 2morrow when i will begin  the new me. i've been disgusting for so long......it's sure to be a hard habit to break. i've been thinking lately...ever since friday when i got kicked out of my school and transfored to another 1. i was out of disrict so they had me on a tight leash. 1 little slip up and BAM bye everybody. i guess it was more then just 1 slip up tho. more like a few. of course with me, slip ups are never little go big or go home right? but ive been looking back at my time at that school and my status or ranking or watever. that was always a blurry subject 4 me. my best frend of all time was gorgeous. beautiful and tiny but feisty and loud...hilarious alot of the time. she was one of those girls that you thought was a bitch. shallow maybe and had everything going for them. i know her better though. i know better than that. aside from being attractive and wealthier than me we're almost exactly the same i guess. we make the same jokes, have the same sense of humor and not to toot our own horn at all but  we're more grown up then other's our age because of the lives we've lived.  my insecurities about my body though leed me to be more awkward around people that i don't know rlly well or when it comes to making new friends. whatever though. anyway's when i looked back at tghe way my time at that school had gone i told myself this school would have to be different. i'd make it different. so my goal for the next week is to eat close to nothing at all, and exercise my ass off.